All to Me

I have he whole bed and room to myslef and yet all I want it Bazzzz



Fuck Love...

those days suckkk

Hey i guess it sounds insane
But it was just one of those days
It was the day it all went wrong

I think that maybe I should sleeep morre

yet also get some more done, I need more motivation and more time, its getting cold now and dark early

Pro/con college on a tuesday

PRO:

Jess
Could develop film
finish work

CON:
College on a Tuesday
College on a Tuesday
college on a Tuesday
getting up
college on a Tuesday
No lay in
college on a Tuesday


Guess who went in on a Tuesday anyway :)Me...

I Like Lists

Here are some obscure things that make me smiley =)

1)Crossing things of lists
2)Sniffing books
3)lying in bed when it's raining outside
3)Pushing over loucozade bottles
4)Spinning cotton wheels
5)Movie night ;P
6)Kicking leaves
7)Cuddly bread
8)cleaning my keyboard
9)the Mario kart map on TF2
10)The way sirguy sounds when sniffing things sometimes
11) looking at veggie food to buy like veggie curry and Scotch eggs
12)developing film
13)the laser beam building noise
14)bop it
15)waking up and being able to hear people talking downstairs

I'll keep adding to it

So recently it seems

I've taken alike to blogging...


V: I, like God, do not play with dice and do not believe in coincidence.

V: The only thing that you and I have in common, Mr. Creedy, is we're both about to die.
Creedy: How do you imagine that's gonna happen?
V: With my hands around your neck.

V: No, what you have are bullets, and the hope that when your guns are empty I'm no longer be standing, because if I am you'll all be dead before you've reloaded.

V: Beneath this mask there is more than flesh. Beneath this mask there is an idea, Mr. Creedy, and ideas are bulletproof.

Evey Hammond: Who are you?
V: Who? Who is but the form following the function of what, and what I am is a man in a mask.
Evey Hammond: Well I can see that.
V: Of course you can. I'm not questioning your powers of observation, I'm merely remarking upon the paradox of asking a masked man who he is.

V: There's no certainty - only opportunity.

V: Would you... dance with me?
Evey Hammond: Now? On the eve of your revolution?
V: A revolution without dancing is a revolution not worth having!

V: The only verdict is vengeance, a vendetta, held as a votive not in vain.

10 Things just like before

1)I'm in my second year of college
2)Things change a lot
3)I can't always tell if it is for the best or worst
4)College is pretty shite
5)I read through all my blogs
6)they used to be happier :/
7)I fail a lot
8)I Might go to uni
9)Reading my old blogs made me miss goood times :S
10)Wellll isn't this happy

Somewhere In The Between

You were gone when we found you
You were practically surrounded, you were trapped
But the opposition stalled, their blood ran cold
When they saw the look of love in your eyes
Maybe the times we had, they weren't that bad
And everything else was part of the plan
We sang: "I don't know where we go from here"
This is the alpha, omega, beginning and the end
And we all just idolize the dead
So you were born (So you were born), and that was a good day
Someday you'll die (Someday you'll die), and that is a shame
But somewhere in the between was a life of which we all dream
And nothing and no one will ever take that away
You had a love and that love had you
And nothing mattered, you were fine
And some will complain, they're just bitter, what a shame
They know that loving and losing is better than nothing at all
Maybe the times we had, they weren't that bad
And everything else was part of our path
We sang: "I don't know where we go from here"
This is the anthem, the slogan, the summary of events
And we all just idealize the past
So you were born (So you were born), and that was a good day
Someday you'll die (Someday you'll die), and that is a shame
But somewhere in the between was a life of which we all dream
And nothing and no one will ever take that away
(Instrumental Solos)
Yeah, the times we had, they were not that bad
And everything else, that was part of the plan
And we sang, "I don't know where we go from here"
This is the Alpha (Alpha!), Omega (Omega!), beginning and the end!
And we all just idolize the dead
So you were born (So you were born), and that was a good day
Someday you'll die (Someday you'll die), and that is a shame
But somewhere in the between was a life of which we all dream
And nothing and no one will ever take that away
And someday soon my friends, this ride will come to an end
But we can't just get in line again.

I do

"Remember when we were angles,
Before we stole cars,
& when sex and drugs were off in another world,
Not a care in the world"

It's Art, It's hard

I Wish I Knew

What I waned to do with my life...

I can't hack it and I panic and that makes it go pneumatic
Causing landslides t-t-t-tearing up my insides

RAWR, RAWR, RAWR

I IZ A TIPSY DINOSAW :D so tipsy i just keeep falling over :P

<3

I Wont Get There

I'm Shit At This Driving Thing & It Hurts Cause I Want It So Much & I Failed So Bad :(

I Need Some Sleep

Today I got up at 5:45am D: because I was to nervous about my CBT D: and I have to go back and do more training :S I didn't fuck it up to much and I'm scared stiff of going out on the road :/ I WILL GET THERE...I hope :S

ANYWAY hen i went to town and run around loads and now I'M KNACKERED D:

James LOL

:/ says (22:38):
thats bullshit
IM SUICIDAL AGAIN
Moolay says (22:49):
>: (
:/ says (22:49):
dont scowl at me!
Moolay says (22:51):
welll your not
:/ says (22:51):
not what?
Moolay says (22:54):
suicidal
:/ says (22:54):
not really im just very depressed
Moolay says (22:55):
[insert porn link here]
:/ says (22:56):
why are you sending me a porn link
Moolay says (22:57):
to entertain you
also how did you know it was porn
:/ says (22:57):
ive been on redtube l:
this isnt even porn
this a social gathering
this makes me feel worse
:/ says (22:58):
theyre havign sex
im never gonna have sex
Moolay says (22:58):
[insert porn link here]
:/ says (22:59):
this has got niggers in it l:
you have no taste in porn

I'm Sleeping Way To Much

and failing at getting anything done. also my bum has gone num from sitting on the stairs :( Maybe i will find some cool pictures to blog instead my blog latly has been a bit to sad :/
x

i do

I Miss Things Being Simple.

Who Needs Actions When You've Got Words

And I can't be arsed to carry on in this debate

That reoccurs, oh when you say I don't care

but of course I do, yet I clearly do,yeah!

We Do Love You Enough For A Life Time And More

Today Has Hit A Bit To Hard :(

I Really Miss You <3 All I wanted to do today was curl up in a blanket and pretend it was all ok,

It hurts so much feeling that sad.



<3



We Love You!!!!

Being In Love

Can Be Hard Work...
but it is worth it cause I Love You and You Are Amazing And Brilliant And Make Me Happy <3
For Reals
:)

Immugunnna

PULL ALL MY TEETH OUT (Y)

HAPPPPY

Today i got this bike & Jess got me sun flowers, I AM A VERY HAPPY MOOLAY

Today Has Sucked

I Hate Everything

True Dat

I LOVE KIE-PIE

I'M SHIT

*True Story*

today

I inherited ALOT of money and NOW I want to BREAK EVERYTHING I own just so I have an excuse to buy it all again..better....FUCKED ;)

New Plan

which is......

[drum roll]

Fuck Everything & Take ACID

:)

GOOD PLAN...RIGHT GUYS????

SUMMMMMERRRR xD

Publish Post

for some reason it is telling me that i've spelt summer wrong ¬_¬ weird that.

so this is my summer blog to inform people its summer, also blogger a website for blogging is telling me blog isn't a word oh and nor is blogger :S

...

MENTAL?

I'm Just Here

I'm lying here in my bed as it gets light and i can here the birds sing and Baz snore and im on MSN just talking shit to people and somehow it reminds me of last year, last summer, last holiday, im not sure why or how but it just feels the same, but different, but better. i cant really explain or describe it.

Just trust me on this, It has that vibe..

FUCK THE FUTURE

I Actuallt don't know what to do after collage.... like the obvious idea would be to move to London, and i'm by no means saying that's a bad idea it would be epic amounts of fun and for a 18 year old where is a better place to be.

but seriously i can't move to London to get wasted and take drugs (ok i deffo can) but ARRRHHHH

i don't know recently i've been thinking about it all about what i'de like to do and i thought i wanted to work for the RSPCA but like i think i might want to be a vet, which is weird caause that is what i wanted to do when i was 10-12 so i dunno but to do this i have to do a 3 year course at Plumton or any amimal college but Plumton would be the best. BUT THATS IN LIKE THE MIDDLE OF FUCKING NOWHERE

but if it is whhat i want then i should do it, right? ...

see I cant not be with Baz fir that long, People in London are tooo coooool :/

Fuck My Life and My Future while ya at it...

I Don't Think You Realise

How Confusing It Is.

Kibble says: no worries.

[c=4][b] Girl[/b][/c] says:

for rest the of your days

Kibble says: :)

[c=4][b] Girl[/b][/c] says:

which isnt many

Kibble says:

hehe

oh

LOL

:D:D:D:D

I have just drawn a picture I am SO HAPPY with I could jizz my pants xD

little Spider

I Met this little spider today, he was on the bus well sorta he was catching a free ride on this guy shirt collar but Jess and I rescued him and the I let him run about on my bad all the way to college,we had a nice little chat.:) he was happy:) I did forget to ask him his name though. how rude of me,; / but I let him go at college and he seeem delighted with his new home :)

i kinda miss him now :(

Outside

you can seee little wishes fly past the window

no that just coool

clouds

The clouds are really good today, they look all full and fluffy and proper, these clouds arn't slacking of on their cloud duties :) they have nailed it :D

& i think they would be really good for staring at :L like clouds spotting/watching whats it called,

clouds are pretty in a weird simple way and i bet their comfy as memory foam matreses :D

Sunday Mornings Everyday For All I Care

And I'm Not Scared

OK

It is time to stop spending my money on drink and drugs and shit i dont need :/, and to buy all those boring this that will be Really helpfull.

external hardrive=£50 (37) DONE

privisional licence=DONE

Alex=£130 DONE

I-Pod repair=£40 NOW FREEEEEEE

...

£270 :s

might also ignor my printer being broke...

but like its summer and

i WANT DRUGS!!!!!

The Cave-Mumford and Son

It's empty in the valley of your heart

The sun, it rises slowly as you walk

Away from all the fears

And all the faults you've left behind

The harvest left no food for you to eat

You cannibal, you meat-eater, you see

But I have seen the same

I know the shame in your defeat

But I will hold on hope

And I won't let you choke

On the noose around your neck

And I'll find strength in pain

And I will change my ways

I'll know my name as it's called again

Cause I have other things to fill my time

You take what is yours and I'll take mine

Now let me at the truth

Which will refresh my broken mind

So tie me to a post and block my ears

I can see widows and orphans through my tears

I know my call despite my faults

And despite my growing fears

But I will hold on hope

And I won't let you choke

On the noose around your neck

And I'll find strength in pain

And I will change my ways

I'll know my name as it's called again

So come out of your cave walking on your hands

And see the world hanging upside down

You can understand dependence

When you know the maker's hand

So make your siren's call

And sing all you want

I will not hear what you have to say

Cause I need freedom now

And I need to know how

To live my life as it's meant to be

And I will hold on hope

And I won't let you choke

On the noose around your neck

And I'll find strength in pain

And I will change my ways

I'll know my name as it's called again

"Give a girl the right shoes, and she can conquer the world."

— Marilyn Monroe !

What A Load OF Shit!!!!

.

And it goes fast

You think of the past

Suddenly everything has changed

mnmlist: list

Stop buying unnecessary things.

Toss half your stuff, learn contentedness.

Reduce half again.

List 4 essential things in your life,

stop doing non-essential things.

Do these essentials first each day, clear distractions

focus on each moment.

Let go of attachment to doing, having more.

Fall in love with less.

The King Blues - What If Punk Never Happened

Well on a cold Tuesday morning, I was walking into town,

Had my headphones blaring, didn't notice what was around,

I crossed the road, a car swerved and nearly ran me down,

Looked in the driver's seat, I swear to God it was Doc Brown,

He said "Are you Michael J Fox?" I said "No I'm Jonny Fox",

He said "Close enough, get inside,

I'm taking you with me to see another time,

A place you could only have dreamed in your mind,

An alternative reality situated just outside of Clapham,

So strap yourself in,

Cos where we're going you don't need roads,

To get to where punk never happened"

We landed in a concrete desert, rubble as far as the eye could see,

I says to Doc "Where we goin'?"

Doc says he's following me,

We found the only building in the city that was left standing,

It was my local venue,

I know cos I recognised the landing,

And there's a gig on tonight! This town ain't so bad,

I got everything I need, right here in this pad,

So I pulled out a bottle and took a heroic swig,

Made myself comfortable and got ready for the gig,

Well an hour after doors and there was still no-one there,

The soundman was on acid, the fucking long hair,

The bands never showed cos they didn't see the point,

When all the kids are at home still smoking a joint,

They won't go out and do nothing, not on your nelly,

They're just watching the telly and then feeding their belly,

Their parents listen to The Beatles, while they listen to Nirvana,

Cos Green Day and The Pistols, well they never heard either,

They got long sleeve T-shirts and they never shower,

They still believe in flower power,

The hippy dream's faded but they got nothing new,

So they wear flares and slippers and burn incense sticks too,

The kids would rather skate than go out and smash the state,

While their parents sit still and meditate,

Action's at a low when people just don't care,

They zoned out to their surroundings, the anger's not there,

And I'm stuck in this hippy, grunge reality,

Where the buildings are crumbling down from apathy,

They grab you at school when you've just turned 13,

And show you your brand new, life long routine,

You can sleep and work, and work and sleep,

So you can save up the money to buy a new jeep,

So you can sleep and work, and work and sleep,

Then sleep. Then work. Then work. Then sleep.

I pulled a fanzine out my back pocket, held it in my hands,

And watched the colours slowly fade away,

The words bled right off of the pages til it had nothing left to say,

I banged on the jukebox but it was useless,

It had no good records on,

Not even something weak like 'The Best Punk Album In The World Ever Volume 1',

Outside the windows, I saw the excavators coming to tear the place down,

No-one stopped them, for there is no community left in this town,

There's no-one around to fight Margaret Thatcher,

The power of the flower just couldn't match her,

Too strong was the will of Parliament to cause damage,

That with no punk rock everything went unchallenged,

Land got knocked down to build more land,

That got knocked down again for a couple more grand,

With no punk the protests were full of throwbacks calling each other comrade,

Of course the young folks' attendance started to fade,

So it was easy for the police to move in, they were trusted,

And that's when the whole damn town got busted,

They moved CCTV cameras in everywhere,

But the people were too apathetic to care,

They made them carry I'd cards to state where they're from,

As if by being born they had done something wrong,

They shipped all the poor folk to live out in the edges,

So the rich folk could move in and peer over their hedges,

"But before you leave, you'd better build our homes,

There, we've done you a favour, now you're on your own,

This ain't your home no more, go find somewhere new,

I know you ain't got the money, cos it's me who employs you,

I know everything about you, what you eat, how you dress,

Your hobbies, your turn-ons, your email address,

While I had you working in the dark, you didn't realise,

That I completely stopped your ability to organise,

I didn't let you have a reason to communicate,

I banned punk rock knowing you hippies would seal your own fate,

I controlled everything you wrote, everything you created,

I distracted you with advertisements so you forgot what you hated,

I fed your dark side, kept you consuming and competing,

And like a dog that doesn't know when to stop eating,

You took it all, oh and long was it my intention,

You could have beat me if punk rock was your invention",

Instead the city will be sold to the highest bids,

If only Sham 69 had of united the kids,

If only the 4 Skins had told us ACAB,

If only The Ramones had let us know we were a happy family,

If only The Buzzcocks had shown us how to do it ourself,

If only Crass had shown us there are things more important than wealth,

If only The Vandals had shown us it was OK to smile,

If only The Dead Kennedys had helped us put our government on trial,

If only Rancid had played live, and brought with them that vibe,

If we had Sick Of It All and Madball we could put them all on the frontline,

If we had GG Allin we'd have learned it's OK to be hated,

If we'd have had The Refused then we could have innovated,

If we'd had Poison Idea then they couldn't push us over,

If we'd had Minor Threat then we could have done it sober,

If we'd have had Against Me we could have done it all unplugged,

If we'd had Operation Ivy we could have done it then fucked off,

If we had The Blitz, The Clash, Disorder, Propagandhi,

The Exploited, NOFX and anyone that's handy,

There's a lesson to be learned, one that I will take home,

When I return to my normal reality zone,

Punk rock has the power to change the world,

It lies in every single punk rock boy and girl,

So don't let anyone tell you you're not worth the earth,

These streets are your streets, this turf is your turf,

Don't let anyone tell you that you've got to give in,

Cos you can make a difference, you can change everything,

Just let your dreams be your pilot, your imagination your fuel,

Tear up the book and write your own damn rules,

Use all that heart, hope and soul that you've got,

And the love and the rage that you feel in your gut,

And realise that the other world that you're always looking for,

Lies right here in front of us, just outside this door,

And it's up to you to go out there and paint the canvas,

After all, you were put on the earth to do this,

So shine your light so bright that all can see,

Take pride in being whoever the fuck you want to be,

Throw your fist in the air in solidarity,

And shout "Viva la punk, just one life, anarchy"

this is a bit of beat

and kinda odd for me but

i dont really know what i think at the moment....

i'm just not gonna thing about it...

i'm confused...

i am certain of some things....

Bang The Future

it should be summer now, I don't wanna this holiday to end I don't wanna spend all day doing work and spend 10 on a bus passssssss .... piss take

I want:

music

drugs

drink

party's

friends

sun

sex

pick nicks

beach

lay ins

&

epic times in general

Somtimes

Things Just Seem Really Perfect & Beautifull

You Know What

I just wanna chill in bed and listen to music all day :)

Sometimes Just Sometimes

I DO REALLY FUCKING STUPID THINGS...
LIKE LEAVE ALL MY FRIENDS and spend the half term alone and miss them all to death... but Ok it is nice here :) Left?

I Really

Don't Know What To Do Without You.

Jacket Potatoes are Bad Cerial

due to what i think being different to what i do I'm not bright pink or living in a balloon :)

I like that pens don't need sharpening and I like that pencils don't run out of ink.

I'm not very with it it would seem I'm going of on tangents about really silly things

I Like You.....But Not All The Time...little door Mouse

GOOD morning BAD morning

I Guess it Is too Early For Toast

The Art of communication is Lost
due to headphones in ears and lack of drugs
I'm bored to death of being sober
instead of fuck to death. on to many drugs
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. by a horse ;)

HAPPY BIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIRRRTTTTTTTHHHHDAAYYY

Happppppyyyy biiiirrrrttthhhdddayyy

I LOVE YOU BOTH VERY BERRY MUCH

You Are The Best People In The World :D For Reals

<3
xXx