And I only hide
what is on my mind because I can't explain

I Need

some motherfucking whisky.......

Longlived

my comfort pasta made me feel sick.
I wish I could have more chocolate milk.
Pysically I'm in a beetter place.
mentally I'm not sure.
I think the ability to be so precise and clean and accurate has made me need to be.
and I don't feel happy anymore. just scared and uncertain and alone. And I dont feel so strong or independent.

how often does someone cry on avarage?

Here is a list of simple normal things I want so much:
- To sleep in my clothes
- To sleep with my window open
- To not brush my teeth so intensly/ not so much
- To not be so scared of germs
- To fall asleep with hot chocolate and a book
- To sleep with the light of
- To have a messy room
- To not be so uncertain and paranoid
- To not get ready for bed!

I'm going to bed now. Night.

I'm going to bed

At 9:10, I already fell asleep at 7:20 till 8:20
now I'm just going to bed cause I feel too sad to be awake.
Rob said he can fix my laptop if my insurance doesn't. thats really nice of him
I wish there was pasta for dinner. or I had some pizza. I want pasta most obviously.
I hope tomorrow I can stop crying and feel better.
guess we'll see.
Night.

whheeey oohhh ohhhh wheeey ooohh ohhh ohhhw

I feel really sad.
and I smeel like sweat from running for the train.
"Therapy still scares me, putting me on my back again, I may be crazy little frayed around the edge"
I'm sorry I couldn't see Cameron properly.
I feel so bloody awfull.

London I love you but you're bringing me down

Guess I don't have to worry about talking when there is no one to talk to...
I want to be alone but I still feel lonely and sad.
ppffftttt.