I feel dreadfull. Im not getting any better as a person. Im more uncertain of myself, Im more timid of people, Im less interesting, less exciting, every thing seems more inhanced in the worst way possible. I feel like i should be stronger, braver, smarter, happier, more bold but really im just less interesting and more fucked up.

For whatever reason Im feeling fairly optimistic about this new year, i really dont know why, but i am! So i'll just go with that.