I feel crappy

its just one stressful thing then another.

STRESSED

My anxiety is really playing up, Im not prepared for this.

I feel really fucking weird

thanks Bangface

jinxed

Summer

I'm genuinely quite content with the way things are going at the moment, people are good, things are good, I'm good. things seem to be going good for people around me, things seem to kind of have just fallen into place. and I'm only gonna be able to appreciate this for 3 more weeks or so cause then I'm back of to London. I hope I really try this year.

Right now some little things feel too big

Kill your heroes

Well I met an old man dying on a train. No more destination no more pain. Well he said "one thing, before I graduate... never let your fear decide your fate." I say ya kill your heroes and fly, fly, baby don't cry. No need to worry cuz everybody will die. Every day we just go, go, baby don't go. Don't you worry we love you more than you know. Well the sun one day will leave us all behind. Unexplainable sightings in the sky. Well I hate to be the one to ruin the night. Right before your, right before your eyes. I say ya kill your heroes and fly, fly, baby don't cry. No need to worry cuz everybody will die. Every day we just go, go, baby don't go. Don't you worry we love you more than you know. Well I met an old man dying on a train. No more destination no more pain. Well he said "one thing, before I graduate... never let your fear decide your fate." I say ya kill your heroes and fly, fly, baby don't cry. No need to worry cuz everybody will die. Every day we just go, go, baby don't go. Don't you worry we love you more than you know. I say ya kill your heroes and fly, fly, baby don't cry. Don't you worry cuz everybody will die. Every day we just go, go, baby don't go. Don't you worry we love you more than you know.

I break and lose everything.

Its so hot.

im real tired and want it to be sunny and things to be good again

My friends are too good for me, and i'm to bad for myself. I really want to stay in bed by myself all day. I just want some time alone.

People are stupid

how many blogs do you think i can write bitching about photography?

slow lorris born gold we are trees photographers never stop... you cant do photography from 9-5, a warning would have been nice. so much work, time, effort, money.

ramble

I sort of feel like rambling. I really like Buffy and Doctor Who. I kinda want chips. Only I don't. I'm tired. I can't swim cause then my hair would be a funny colour. I want to go to bed. And sleep for a very long time. I feel crapy. I don't wantoreos. I think I'm gonna go to london. And relax. God. I want a sowner. I want a nice cuddly ugly sweater and I wouldn't stay at school after it shut. I don't think I'll go out tomorrow. I feel kinda sick. Its early. I'm rambling I think I'll go to sleep with my ipod in tonigh. I like Willow. Facebook sucks. I can't remember that last time I rambled this much. My phone auto punctuates words for me. Isn't that niiiice. I alsway thing I'll like swimming more then I do. I feel lousy my ears and throat hurt. I hope I'm not getting ill. I feel ill. JsightJ I want pappwer bags full of sweets. I should stop. Night blogger.

I feel so much right now. And yet so little.

Geezuuuus

My life would be to simple if I could do things right...

I am feeling pretty tired and warn out

Mental Madness Thursday

I really love mental madness Thursday, but I am not looking forward to going out. I have either earache giving me toothache or toothache giving me earache and I can only presume its cause of a infection. I mean why the shit else would this happen? also I have been in pain since 2am. its 3:54pm now. I have tried sleeping that went badly, I tried taking co-codomol, nurefen, paracetamol & ibuprofen, None of them have taken any pain away. I have had a restless night and it fucking hurts.

this is the first time I have ever beeen by myself in a house at night. I think. I am scared

Today is one of those days where i'd rather stay in bed. And wakingp was a big mistake. I have tooth ache and feel ill.

"I'm just a fucked-up girl who's lookin' for my own peace of mind; don't assign me yours."

I really want to go on holiday

this time last year we would have got home from bangface. we still have another 4 months :( i love bangface nothing matters and everything is amazing.

Times Like These

I am a one way motorway I'm the one that drives away Then follows you back home I am a street light shining I'm a wild light blinding bright Burning off alone It's times like these you learn to live again It's times like these you give and give again It's times like these you learn to love again It's times like these time and time again I am a new day rising I'm a brand new sky To hang the stars upon tonight I am a little divided Do I stay or run away And leave it all behind? It's times like these you learn to live again It's times like these you give and give again It's times like these you learn to love again It's times like these time and time again

i dont like the new blogger

I am far to poor to do photography.

I feel really sad and stupid. probably because I am.

IM LISTENING TO THE KING BLUES

they are so good,

this may be a turning point but it may be a fluke

I, right now, feel like i really actually care about photography. not my work. just photography in general. which i kinda did before, but i feel more like i try and stuff in my own time.
But, this may pass and i'll go back to dossing :P

RAW

I took my camera of RAW and didnt put it back on and now I am annoyed. pft. i suck at this.

Lie

I was lying to myself when thought I'd be any good at this uni stuff

Why didnt i do art or science or something

Ok art would have been just as much work and i wasnt good enough at science to do it. I should have done psychology everyone does that! why on earth did i do photography! wtf was i thinking?
I'm lazy
I hate people
I'm unorganized
WTF was I thinking
im going to read my course book 'the photography as contemporary art' and fail some more.

Postcards from Catalunya - Get Cape Wear Cape Fly

We talked for hours
And nothing made much sense
I'm sick and tired
Of sitting on the fence

Cos I've been sitting here for hours
And I thought I found the answers to
The questions I was asking
Now I'm not sure what they were
Amongst the postcards of Catalunya
And the late night conversations, I
I can't find the hows or whys...

We talk in circles
We move in narrow lines
I miss the grey patch
Between the black and white

And I've been sitting here for hours
And I thought I found the answers to
The questions I was asking
Now I'm not sure what they were
Amongst the postcards of Catalunya
And the late night conversations, I
I can't find the hows or whys...

I miss the silence
Of sitting here alone
I think I love you
But I'm better on my own

Cos I've been sitting here for hours
And I thought I found the answers to
The questions I was asking
Now I'm not sure what they were
Amongst the postcards of Catalunya
And the late night conversations, I
I can't find the hows or whys...
I can't find the hows or whys...
I can't find the hows or whys...
I can't find the hows or whys...

the last 2 nights me and Shiv stayed out till 8am getting fucked, (Y) good times

Sleep

I've been trying to sleep 8 hours a night, but I'm up at 4 doing stop motion.

The King Blues

have split up. I am upset, like really quite upset.

Hair

I need to stop pulling my hair out.And dye it,
its starting to make me depress with how bad it looks.

My teeth are mended

be proud

mate, like, sick, boom, wa'gwan, shit the bed,

least i dont say bear.
perks of living with Alex, you talk like a spack.

No one ever blogs on here cause tumblr is like waaaaay cooler.

my back hurts for no real reason and my stop animation is going down hill, just like at college...

?

my work is really confusing my. I don't think I will take it all in. I don't think I will remember it at all.

Real life scares me.

You all know how much I love Dexter

They should have stopped making that.
Series 7.No.

Hey

Hows things?
xxx

I've come to the end of Being Human and Skins, and I have like uber loads of that sorta had & sappy feeling you get when you finish tv shows and books. i feel kinda sad but comforted. I dont have any shows im watching now. and i'm not reading much, and im not massively into my games atm. this would be an ideal time to get all my work done. Wonder what i'll think to do instead...

Its nearly summer soon.
I wonder how good it will be?
I wonder how much like last summer it will be?
I look back on last summer and think "OHMYGOD"
but "the times we had they weren't that bad and everything else was part of the plan"
I bet Shiv & I can drink more this year.
Man, I'm excited for pirate day!

Wander with me yo!

Im driving myself crazy

Frightened Rabbit

listen to them too!

I'm working on my faults and cracks
Filling in the blanks and gaps

I went to the dentist

Be Proud.

pain

Im in so much pain all the time

It's kind of a funny story

when I felt really sad and fed up, i watched this film called "it's kind of a funny story" (I never know when you should spell story with a "y" or an "ie")

but annywaaay the film is a bit silly in an indie trendy way, but it did make me feel like i should do something to be happy, to help myself, and so I did. and pretty much everyone deserves to be happy.

I don't know what the point in this blog is.
I have really erratic moods.
I can never tell if i should blame the implant or myself?
I want to be a good person
I want to be a good friend

momentarily I feel happy, but like i said, erratic.

so yeah.you should be happy. because its nicer than being sad.
I hope the best for you.

our washing machine just vibrated and sounded like it broke something D:

Electric President

are a beautifully sad band, but also very calming.

?

How do you change who you are?

:s

I feel chocked up

For some reason

while in a good mood, I felt like listening to the playlist I made a while ago of sad song. not one of my smartest moves. It has to many memories. to many strings attached.

Ahhhh Mannnn, 'Appy Days.

I really love this song

Something inside the cards
I know is right
Don't want to live
Somebody elses life
This is what I want to be
And this is what I give to you
Because I get it free
She smiles while I do my time

I could die for you
Oh this life I choose

I'm here to be your only go between
To tell you of the sights
These eyes have seen
What I really want to do is
Turn it into motion
Beauty that I can't abuse
You know that I'd use my senses to
You can see that
It's only everywhere
I'd take it all and then
I'd find a way to share

Come along and go
Along with me
Wander with me Yo
It's all for free

I could die for you
What u wanna do
Oh this life I choose

I could die for you
What u wanna do
Oh this life I choose

Come again and tell me
Where you want to go
What it means to me
To be with you alone
Close the door and
No one has to know
How we are

Come along and go
Along with me
Wander with me Yo
It's all for free

I could die for you
What u wanna do
Oh this life I choose

I could die for you
What u wanna do
Oh this life I choose

Makes me wanna say

I could die for you
What u wanna do
Oh this life I choose

I could die for you
What u wanna do
Oh this life I choose

10 things

1)I live in london
2)with Kie,Jess and Alex
3)I'm with Baz
4)I really love my rats
5)I read alot more
6)I don't do much work....ever
7)we eat nice meals most nights
8)photography is exspensive
9)I miss Siobhan and Baz
10)Sherlock is soo goood

I just read allll my blogs

I wrote a blog a while ago saying how i was sad i had ruined my blog by writting depresting shit all over it.

And so I went to edit out and delete all the boring shit. But then i couldnt bring myself to do it. so now I will just leave it, it was me, this is my blog, so there is no point lying about it.

:)
We are going to bang face, I never blog at uni

I got dosed by you and
Closer than most to you and
What am I supposed to do
Take it away I never had it anyway
Take it away and everything will be okay

cause I don't complain all the time :P

http://wanderwithmeyo.tumblr.com/

i am so full up

so much nice food

I miss Merly & Isaac.