better place, better time,

I'm going to try and sort this shit out, and when i say this shit I mean me.
I'm so sorry for how I've been recently, I'm sorry I cry on you all the time.
I should make some sort of attempted to talk to you all without crying and have fun without drinking so much.
I'm sorry I'm being a knob.
I'm sorry.
I've really fucked my head up. mentally & physically.
I know I can't just wallow in it I know i have to move on and I'm scared.
I guess I just have to try.
Sorry

I'm sorry I hurt you so much

Well that was the best I've slept but the worst I feel.

I'm trying to be brave,
cause when I'm brave other people feel brave.
But i feel like my heart is caving in.

I Don't Think I Can Do This.

cause I feel like posting happy songs

Take me
From this world
Save me
What if we
All die young?
So take me
From this world
Save me
What if we
All die young?

Don't ask me why
'Cuz I don't know
Don't ask me how
I'm gonna solve this on my own
Don't ask me why
'Cuz I don't know
These things I've never faced
Scratch out, but won't erase

In the face
Of change
That’s when she turned to me and said
“I’m not sure anymore”

And there
Amidst the waves and the cloudless skies
That blanket the year before
I watch my life wash ashore

Have you ever been a part of something
That you thought would never end?
And then, of course it did
Have you ever felt the weight inside you
Pulling away inside your skin?
And then something had to give

Now the lines are drawn
Is this feeling gone?
The best parts of this have come and gone
And now that is all this is
With the reasons clear
We’ll spend another year
Without direction, full of fear
And now things will be different

There’s nothing simple when it comes to you and I
Always something in this everchanging life
And there probably always will
Now that time is getting harder to come by,
The same arguments are always on our mind
{We’ve} killed this slowly fading light

Now the lines are drawn
Is this feeling gone?
The best parts of this have come and gone
And now that is all this is
With the reasons clear
We’ll spend another year
Without direction, full of fear
But now things will be different

And now something
Has kept me here too long
And you can’t leave me
If I’m already gone

Well now something (hey)
Has kept me here too long
And you can’t leave me (hey)
If I’m already gone

Now let’s say that something (hey)
Has kept me here too long
And you can’t leave me (hey)
If I’m already gone

And we make the same mistakes
We’re always hanging on
Break the promises we’re always leaning on
All this time spent waking up
{Now I} keep this line open to get this call from you
{As you} speak the words that keep me coming back to you
Now this time it’s all different

Now something
Has kept me here too long
And now I’m gone

Maybe we’ll have to break everything to make something better out of ourselves.(karin mathilda)

I Hate Myself and Want to Die.

Runny nose and runny yolk
Even if you have a cold still
You can cough on me again
I still haven't had my fulfill

In the someday what's that s sound? (x4)

Broken heart and broken bones
Think of how a castrated horse feels
One more quirky cliched phrase
You're the one I wanna refill

In the someday what's that s sound? (x4)

(spoken quietly)
Most people don't realize
That two large pieces of coral,
Painted brown, and attached to his skull
With common wood screws can make a child look like a deer

In the someday what's that s sound? (x4)

Runny nose and runny yolk
Even if you have a cold still
You can cough on me again
I still haven't had my fulfill

In the someday what's that s sound? (x4)

Danger, keep away.

We too feel alone

That place in my mind
Is that space that you call mine
That place in my mind
Is that space that you call mine

Where have I been all this time?
Lost enslaved fatal decline
I've been waiting for this to unfold, but
The pieces are only as good as the whole

Severed myself from my whole life
Cut out the only thing that was right
What If I never saw you again
I'd die right next to you in the end

That place in my mind
Is that space that you call mine
That place in my mind
Is that space that you call mine

I won't let you walk away
Without hearing what I have to say
Without hearing what I have to say
Without hearing what I have to say

i dont

i dont want to do this anymore....any of this... i dont want to be here...im sorry its stressful knowing me.

IMFUCKINGSORRY