Longlived

my comfort pasta made me feel sick.
I wish I could have more chocolate milk.
Pysically I'm in a beetter place.
mentally I'm not sure.
I think the ability to be so precise and clean and accurate has made me need to be.
and I don't feel happy anymore. just scared and uncertain and alone. And I dont feel so strong or independent.

how often does someone cry on avarage?

Here is a list of simple normal things I want so much:
- To sleep in my clothes
- To sleep with my window open
- To not brush my teeth so intensly/ not so much
- To not be so scared of germs
- To fall asleep with hot chocolate and a book
- To sleep with the light of
- To have a messy room
- To not be so uncertain and paranoid
- To not get ready for bed!

I'm going to bed now. Night.