I can do this?

This part of my life will be remembered with my blog and grooveshark, I hate that I've ruined my blog with such depressing shit, maybe one day I can go through and delete it all. and go back to posting happy indi trendy shit. and talking about how much i love drugs. I think I'm just going to have to embrace this pain instead of hiding from it. I think I'll just listen to really angry music and turn my sadness into anger then like kill someone then everything will be ok, right?