I mean, you can only hold so much pain and recently it feels like the taps been left running. I feel like im fucking up more than ever right now and i am just building up all the badness inside me, and i can let go of any of it, i cant forgive myself or move on i just regret it all everyday and i hate myself for it. I dont know what im ment to do with it all. And then on top of all of this i have to try and deal with myself as a person and overcome my anxiety and innability to interact with people and the paranoia and im sick of my ocd, i feel so insignificant and terrible. Its all to much for my head to take. I finish uni soon and im terrified about that and the real world and i dont know what im gonna do and im so self doubting i dont belive im good enough to do anything and to scared of people to try. I really dont know. I needed to write this all down, im falling apart.